Hakuna Matata: Being a Carefree Homemaker

*clears throat*
Hello everyone, my name is Noelle and I.... am a Pin-aholic.

It is true, I like soooo many other women in the world fall blissfully under the stereotype of the Pinterest loving homemaker. I can (and sometimes do) spend hours on there looking at things I plan to do (but probably wont) and meals to make and tips on organizing my life.

I have read literally dozens of blogs about creating a budget, a budget folder, a cleaning schedule, a meal plan, and a general life agenda.... I have put together bits and pieces from scattered websites to try and make my own system and I have gone through notebook after adorable notebook trying to line out my uninteresting yet somehow hectic life. NOTHING has seemed to work; I mean every time I start to get my flow going, life hits us hard with some crazy big event. (most recently it was giving birth, before that it was car problems...and in 2 months it will be moving to another country)
Being that I stay at home I have a good amount of time to think so I am constantly trying to improve myself.
Quite frankly being a housewife and SHM means much more to me than just wiping baby butts and cooking edible food; it means keeping track of everything so that my husband and children have little to worry about. I try my best to fine tune the budget and actually stick to it, make a plethora of meals that aren't just edible but actually satisfying, educating and keeping my children alive until they can generally do it for themselves, and even keeping myself decent so that my husband has something pleasant to look at when he gets off of work. You can imagine my frustration when life gets out of whack.

One of the things I noticed when reading these other blogs about organizing your life is that every single one of them NEVER mentions flexibility. It's as if they all have children already in school which leaves them 8 glorious hours a day to get done what they need to. (with a bonus of being able to start and finish at the same time) This realization also left me with a dread that my life would be alllllll over the place for the next 4 to 5 years (when both girls will be in school). UHM HELLO?! Have you ever met a baby? or even a toddler? Life runs on their time and their time only which means that I can plan my entire week to the detail... vaccum everyday, laundry on Wednesday and Sundays, workout at 7:30 am, shower after, so on so forth; however, writing it down does NOT mean that it will happen and most likely won't.
This has been my life lately. Some days (thanks to teething) I am basically shackled to my child and get nothing done until 10:00 at night. I end up frustrated and resentful that I can't keep the house squeaky clean or that actually going to the gym is more of a dream than possibility and it's exhausting/depressing to be frustrated all the time. So, I have decided "TO HELL WITH IT!".

I put a lot of pressure on myself. Probably about things that don't matter to most people... It's just part of who I am. When I do something I like to be the best at it, but maybe it's time I look around and just give a shrug of apathy. After all, I get to be home everyday watching my children grow, I mean gosh, Lela is already 3 months old and Ava is saying "Bless you." when you sneeze. *giggle*

It might take a little bit to really learn to relax but I'm sure I will get there. "Hakuna Matata".